Paperweight by Meg Haston
Summary: Stephanie, aka Stevie, wants to die. Her mother left her and she killed her brother. Now all she has to do is control her needs and her body and she can leave the world too. Stevie is a bulimic girl and because of a complicated accident with her brother Joshua, she blames herself for his death. She believes that the only way to free herself is to die and so she sets herself on a mission to die by the day Josh died. What she didn't count on is that her dad would notice and send her to a school where she was supposed to be nursed back to health by some shrink. However time passes and things happen and maybe Stevie doesn't want to die anymore, and maybe that's still ok.
Opinion: When I first read the summary on goodreads and on the back of the book I was pretty intrigued and then I read the book and my heart sort of fell. It's a bit weird to be reading about someone with your same name, gender, and somewhat same age except them wanting to die. So that was a bit... freaky at least for me, but putting that aside I thought that this book really taught me how people with eating disorders thought and the process for them to get back to being healthy. Stevie was incredibly brave to face her fears and I by the end I was truly touched by her strength.
Stevie is such an intricate character and Meg Haston created her well. From her crazy back story to her conflicted emotions, it seems hard to believe from just my word that someone live Stevie could exist but when portrayed in Paperweight it felt like this story could have easily been a real person going through this process of getting better from a very real disease.
Read if you like books with: health problems, life issues, learning to love yourself
Cover: 5/5 (really beautiful I have the paperback one where the hand is downward but the other versions are really pretty too!)
Favorite Quote: "We're meant to be part of a we. Something bigger, something outside of ourselves."
Opinion Spoilers: Not much to spoil... Stevie does live and I was SO glad she did. If she didn't I don't even want to know how I would feel. Stevie really became so brave at the end and that is what I really admire about her. This is a great book for anyone who feels lost sometimes because Stevie's strength shines through and I think she passes it on to anyone who reads this book.
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